It is so hard to really forget the very first person whom accepted u as who u are (after ur family)...
Although I was left half life and heart scattered like mince meat, I am still thinking about u all day all nights, ur existence has been planted deeply into my subconsciousness..I keep myself at delusion And tell myself how good u r, despite of having treated like a garbage.... I just couldn't control this rushed feeling. Whenever I saw ur name, I would start the journey of imagination and I have flashbacks of how great we were back then...
I know our relationship had come to an end long before the incident happened but ur every single action always gives me the false alarm that u were still wanting to be with me... AND yes, I stayed stupidly and waited for u to turn back at the junction... What have I got here so far? Nothing...
Feelings have faded, nothing is left in my heart and also my mind, time is really a mysterious thing. It will help us to forget and erase all the past that we had either as sweet as glucose or as bitter as bile.
Ur recent message has really gone into me, deep inside me. I really held the urge to just say yea when u asked me to meet up for dinner, but I love myself more than anything else. My heart said go for it, but my mind stopped me.
I am still in dilemma on whether I should give this a shoot and re-make friends with u....
I really miss the moments we shared far back then when we were young...
Reminiscing of the sweet times that we got together has always been occurring within myself since the day when u decided to be so cold to me...
Till next thread..
Mayo-
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