Unmendable Trust

The night is still young !!! *checking time, now is 12.47 alr* ><

well, Whenever I come here, there will be something that I wanna record down as the milestone for this odyssey!!!

I am not sure which of ur words are really true now. I lost the most important thing that is needed in the kinship, TRUST...

U have just blasted it out and it has been scattered randomly.

I really trap in a maze now on which way I should go, dilemma yet and again....

I just dont wish to see this kinship to end so early, it's not even 2 months yet...

The story behind this losing trust is that *in case I forgot* - I had a convo with my closes one's best friend whom is also his brother and whom I don't really know about... And the convo continued until early in the morning like 2++ am ytd morning...

And when I chatted with the closed one, he called me using my Chinese name which I have never told him *at least this is what I remember*, and I asked the best friend if he had told the closed one about the convo we had the other night, he just replied me "sorrie" to admit it...

I was really thinking that this best friend was really intending to make friends with since he is so close to the closed one, BUT that was what I thought!!! He exposed the private convo of us to others!!! N to the "sensitive" fella... I lost my trust now towards him as well, Im so redundant in making any convo with him anymore, like the saying "leopard will not change its spots", once the fault is done, there will be no turn-over...

AND when I probed to the closed one of mine how the hell he knew my chinese name, he replied I told him the other... Well maybe I had but I couldnt remember at all...

Till now-

Mayo-